Grand Canyon

Study, Practice, Repeat…

Woah, what a different life I live since my last post… My disconnection was caused by the many changes I’ve made as well as some idiot hacking my site and installing terrible malware that deflated my sails for a while…

So many things have changed. Some for the better… others not so much… some amazing… some debilitating… some liberating… some truly ground moving… The most exciting piece of information is that I’ve retired from the corporate insurance world and I’m now a FULL-TIME artist! CAN. YOU. BELIEVE. IT?… No?… Me either…

A leap of faith that seemed so distant for too many years. My whole life this faith was nowhere to be found. It felt like pole-vaulting the grand canyon. I mean… how many times did I watch Wile E. Coyote fall to a cloud of dust over the cliff? A siren whistles then POOF! I’ve stood at the ledge of it and peered down 6,000 feet, which was nerve-wracking in itself. It’s a huge freaking crevasse spanning 277 miles of the Arizona desert! But! One day during the hardest, most fast pace quarter of my high-stress job and book cycle I heard words I didn’t want to hear and I just blurted it out, “that doesn’t really matter. I’m going to go ahead and give my resignation.” At that very moment I knew, my heart knew, that it was over. I served commercial clients proudly for 24 years, from my very first job as a receptionist at 16 years old — fast forward to a 41-year-old woman – out of gas and stressed beyond handling one more season…

This event prompted most of the good feels above – it’s been an amazing and liberating six months. Ground moving in that the path under my feet is now paved in independent determination. I feel as if I was lifted up by the back of my shirt collar off a tattered sidewalk and placed back down gently in a meadow of ankle height grass. Green fields for as far as the eye can see. All of the natural colors around me inspire me to create as I soak them up. Absorbing this inspiration isn’t a choice; it happens everywhere I go. Every shadow and highlight draws my eye even when insignificant to a project. Study, Practice, Repeat… It’s a balanced rhythm.